Well...it's been quite a while since I blogged. Let me tell you why, & what's been going on since then:
School...fell through...I was over-worked, stressed, unmotivated, way behind, sick for 3 months, rethinking my Major... I didn't even go to the last month of school, & didn't take any of my Finals. I have no idea where I want to go school/career-wise, which is just as well, since I have no money for school...
Christmas was good---Nice & relaxing. New Year's Eve was awesome! Dancing to Royal Crown Revue ^_^ I really don't care what the "Lindy Crowd" thinks---Neo-Swing rocks! :P The Utah Lindy Exchange (ULX) was quite awesome as well. Lots of great dances, w/lots of great people (& I wasn't sick for most of it like last year :-\). Swing Club's been getting more organized, & we had an awesome turnout last week. This coming weekend is an event called "Harlem Nights"---2 days of dance workshops w/nationally-renowned instructors :) And next month I'm going to the Sacramento Lindy exchange! :D I'm super-pumped, 'cause I missed it last year.
As for my lack of computer usage, here's the story: Back in October, my little brother got a bunch of virus stuff on our computer... It's happend now & then before, & I'd always managed to fix things, including once back in September (again, it was my little brother...if he does it a third time, I will murder him). But this time...this time the viri basically...won... I spent dozens & dozens of hours over trying to fix things, but to no avail. Just after New Year's, we backed up all our personal files, wiped the hard-drive, & reinstalled everything. It was a long, arduous process, but everything's working good now, & my family has finally stopped bugging me with "Have you reinstalled such-&-such a program yet? >:-\"
Work... I recently got a slight raise, but they've also been cutting hours...& probably will again soon... But I also have this looming deadline ahead of me: I'm still living at home, 'cause I don't have a degree, I don't have money to pay for school to get a degree, I'm not getting hours to get that money! Stupid economy... At any rate, when I turn 25 in August, I won't qualify to stay on my parents' insurance anymore! So, I've got 6 months to find a job with benefits... It's just as well, 'cause I want to move out so badly, I want to scream... You really have no idea...every week it gets worse... My dad is...a very, very aggravating person to live with... I'm 24, for Pete's sake, but he still treats me like a child! I feel like any time or money I spend, I need his approval, or else he starts lecturing me & giving me all kinds of crap... Sigh...I want to move out so badly...
But some stuff's going alright. I love animals :) I'm getting ready to upgrade my Leopard Gecko's habitat this week! Nothing's too good for Zora...she pretty much rocks :) I wish I had money & room for more pets... But I'm really excited that we're getting a new puppy in a few months! We have a nearly 10 year old Brittany Spaniel, Cheetah, & my dad wants her to help train a new puppy to hunt birds before she gets too old. Also, once I get some kind of a stable routine, I really want to do some volunteer work with one of the animal adoption agencies---the Utah Humane Society, Utah Animal Adoption Center, No More Homeless Pets, Pet Samaritan, etc. The number of homeless & euthanized dogs & cats in the U.S. every year is simply appauling...
As for friends & girls...status quo... Things are going "well" with friends, but not nearly as well as I'd like... I'm just...lacking...somehow... And there's been some major drama of some kind between some very dear friends that I wish I could do something about---but it's not my business, & I wouldn't know where to even start, anyway... And girls...are just as perplexing & aggravating as ever...I've recently come to a realization of how society really seems to view dating, relationships, & love, but that deserves it's own blog-post...
On the whole things have been going better for me, but a couple things last night kind of brought the black clouds in again... So it's back to business as usual...brooding... And I'm left to figure out how to......grow up... Find a new job, not kill my dad, move out, grow w/friends, & figure out girls... Pshhh, figure out girls...that's on top of trying to move on from past girls... I'm carrying way too many torches...God in Heaven I'm carrying too many torches...
"Every time that it seems I get too close to the flame
It burns me and leaves me the same
But my heart just won't take it
Another drop will just break it for good
So I cut the tie, in the blink of an eye
And I leave it out there to die...misunderstood"
