I've fallen so far behind on my Blogging... When I first started out, I hoped to write a post every week. I know a lot of people say that, and never follow through, but I really felt like I had a lot to say... I did, really...I guess I just got a lot of it out pretty quickly... And all too often there's nothing "new" or "big" to report... Ah, well... At least I actually have something to post now :)
For starters, we got a new puppy around the start of April! :D Another Brittany Spaniel, like Cheetah (who's almost 10 1/2 now). The new puppy's name is Rosie (Alias "Rosie-O", Alias "Little One", Alias "El Destructo" ;)). She's about 6 months old now. And she's...different from Cheetah. Much more athletic, much more strong-willed, and so much more destructive...the amount of liberated pillow-stuffing from our deck furniture is appauling...;) Hopefully she'll grow out of it.
Travelling to Oregon this summer crapped out :( But my dad, my twin brother, & I went to Lake Powell a couple weeks ago! :D First time in 10 years! It was great to go there again... I just wish we could've explored more canyons & Anasazi ruins, & chased more lizards ;) Chasing the lizards is my oldest memory of Lake Powell...and of camping, period... I seriously considered catching one & bringing it home... Also my twin brother & I are going to Mysterium in Spokane next week! :D (What's the D'ni word for "Huzzah!"? ;))
But...
I still want to move out (down to Salt Lake ) so badly...I lose my parent's health insurance when I turn 25 in another 3 weeks...& I need a better-paying job, with benefits... But job-hunting is such masochistic torture...even moreso in this economy... I'm shooting for Costco, but if that craps out, what do I do???
And in the end...
I still miss so many people SO MUCH...especially girls...I miss so many girls...romantically & platonically... One in particular, that's almost always around, but I still miss her nonetheless... As for the others...I've made attempts to reach a lot of them, several times...but I haven't really gotten much of anything from them... I feel like I'm the only one putting anything into these friendships... And there's just no easy way to say "I want you to be a part of my life"...especially when you want more than just a friendship...especially when that isn't possible...
And so I'm left to my own thoughts...and broodings...the following of which I've carefully ordered...
"Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos."
--Charles M. Schulz
"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."
--Judy Garland
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."
--Unknown
"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."
--Robert Heinlein
"One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else."
--Unknown
"It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel."
--Unknown
"The eternal quest of the individual human being is to shatter his loneliness."
--Norman Cousins
"Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes."
--Henry David Thoreau
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated."
--Alphonse de Lamartine
"I think about you constantly, whether it's with my mind or my heart."
--Albany Bach Reid
"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you."
--Unknown
"Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle
Everything I do is stitched with its color."
--W.S. Merwin, "Separation"
"Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again."
--Unknown
"Days of absence, sad and dreary,
Clothed in sorrow's dark array,
Days of absence, I am weary;
She I love is far away."
--Jean-Jacques Rousseau
"What shall I do with all the days and hours
That must be counted ere I see thy face?
How shall I charm the interval that lowers
Between this time and that sweet time of grace?"
--Frances Anne Kemble
"Oft in the tranquil hour of night,
When stars illume the sky,
I gaze upon each orb of light,
And wish that thou wert by."
--George Linley
"If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden."
--Claudia Ghandi
"Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too."
--Unknown
